Tuesday, April 16

有一種思念是淡淡的幸福
有一種幸福是常常的牽掛
有一種牽掛是遠遠地欣賞

不是所有的夢都能實現
不是所有的話都來得及告訴
不是所有的愛都有結果

有一種聲音再也不可能回旋
有一個人再也不會相依相偎
有一雙手再也握不住那掌心的溫度

有的東西即使再喜歡也不屬於你
有的人即使再留戀也注定要放棄

有些機會因瞬間的猶豫擦肩而過
有些緣分因一時的任性滑落指間
有些感情因一時的衝動遺憾一生

有些人你以為可以見面的
有些事你以為可以一直繼續的

然而也許
在你轉身的那個刹那
有些人你就再也見不到了

當太陽落下
又升起來的時候
一切都變了
一不小心就再也回不去了
有些人一轉身就是一輩子了

Posted by Isabelle at 7:28 pm

Monday, April 15

Coming back here is like occasionally flipping through a memory catalog, albeit it probably looks like I've lost 2 years of my life somewhere in between. Grown so much more, been through so many emotions, lived through so many events. But at the same time, I'm still the old me, pondering about the same things as I did, coming to this blog only when I'm down and out. Looks like the only outlet that I can count on whenever I needed some quiet.

In the last 2 years, I met a friend, and I lost a friend. Still think of her daily, still wonder if she's doing okay every day. I miss her a lot and I treasure every single thing and detail I have of her, hoping that one day we can be friends again. She sent back all the things she had of me in a brown paper bag, which was so like her to do so. Gave me a last note to say that she'll try, and then erased all her connections to me. Within a day, I was wiped out of her life. It was like I never existed. That hurt a lot, to know that I'll never be a part of her life, and that my memories with her were so readily flushed away.

But she's hurt too, by me. We may never reconcile, but I know a part of me has been taken away by her, never to be found again.

Thank you, my friend. Sometimes I think one of the best parts of my life were spent doing everything and nothing with you.

Posted by Isabelle at 8:11 pm

Sunday, February 27

Being alone is finding yourself in a random sea of people and not one of them reaches out to you.

Posted by Isabelle at 12:42 pm

Saturday, January 30

如何让你遇见我
在这最美丽的时刻
为着我已在佛前求了五百年
求他让我们结一段尘缘
佛于是把我化作一棵树
长在你必经的路旁
阳光下慎重的开满了花
朵朵都是我前世的盼望
当你走进请你细听
那颤抖的叶是我等待的热情
而当你终于无视的走过
在你身后落了一地的...
朋友啊那不是花瓣
是我凋零的心

Posted by Isabelle at 12:25 am

Tuesday, April 7

I can't sleep, for varying reasons ranging from not getting a response to worrying about things and finally, to lack of company. I think I should sleep, so I wouldn't be letting my thoughts drift away.

I had a weird dream last night, or rather just the morning before. I was crying. I can't remember what about though, but the point was that it was just myself and no one else.

Having read the last few lines that I wrote, I think I really do need to sleep.

Am I being willful, or am I just trying to catch up with time?

Posted by Isabelle at 3:35 am

Monday, April 6

I'm going to spend the last few weeks of my life in hall in solitude, then finally fade away as my remaining days run out and I silently creep out of uni life.

Emo, I know.

Posted by Isabelle at 10:27 pm

Thursday, March 26

I left this blog page open for the past half an hour, but nothing really comes out. I meant to type something out just so that I can get it out of me, but really, no words can describe how I feel right now.

An impending sense of loss, coupled with some loneliness. Emo. Sigh.